MindPlay by Karma
(from the book “Sexually Explicit” and featured in "Awake Falling Up", coming soon)
On occasion my puzzle is my ego
And I like to let the pieces fall as they may
Leaving them each in an alluring disarray
And dangerous as it may be
Touched by blissed and shaped in ways that I see fit
Therefore they suit me
Leaves something to reminiscence
Outside the box mindplay exists
What is it that possesses someone to say that they’re falling in love with someone they’ve just virtually met? They don’t even know any of your faults or flaws… not even your middle name. If it’s genuine, are they falling for you or that glorified part in (or of) you that they think they see? It seems that people don’t really value the true meaning of the words “I Love You” anymore. Just use it for all intents but opening yourself up to the person you’re supposedly in love with. Unless their actions reflect what their words say.. or maybe the actions have just been going unnoticed, this trend appears to have become the new form of having notches on the belt.
“Some people are just in love with the idea of falling in love” is something that I’ve grown to believe. Wanting to recreate that initial feeling, that initial adrenaline rush is what causes people to fall head over heels for someone acting out the scenes in some fairytale movie and saying all the lines. That beautiful rush is what causes some people to leave relationships that otherwise would have lasted a lifetime. Searching for what they thought was the excitement missing. Some feel that love isn’t obtainable therefore nonexistent leaving them to use (the idea of) it as a game to play with the hearts of unsuspecting victims. Everyone has ugly sides to them and some more so than others. It all really depends on your perception. But hey, (inner) beauty is in the eye of the beholder and love does make people do some crazy things no matter how illogical it may seem to someone else. I just don’t understand it but then I can. I do believe in love at first sight. And falling in love probably wouldn’t be as exciting if we did understand it and knew exactly what to expect. If there is a false sense of love, I wonder if it is caused by the soul-ties that I’ve heard people speak of. Finding love is like playing a game of Russian roulette. Everytime your heart breaks, you lose a part of your soul and die a little. Especially if you have given of yourself more than just emotionally and mentally. I’ve even said to myself before, “I exude that which eludes me..” All in all love is still worth fighting for.
In Love at War by Karma
(from the book “Awake Falling Up”, coming soon)
I am confused
Not knowing
What to do
Stressed over the decisions
Cause everything causes
Chain reactions
Hoping not to regret what happens
Needing a sign, a hint, some sort of clue
At times, I feel like a puppet in love
And at others,
Like a pawn in the universe’s
Game of a tug of war
Yep, that’s it
My mind is a battlefield
And I’m constantly countering
Each of my thoughts
Trying to justify my moves as strategies
A back up plan for a backup plan
A counter attack just in case...
I regret what happens.
