Poetic Soul

by Wendy "Karma" Williams from Awake Falling Up

Embodiment of soul grabbing verbs

virtually transcend written language

Regret the muse of inspirations

because now expressions are lost

A friendship ended before it began

Heart fell for the haiku, the poetry,

the prose, the sweet rhythmic notions

Missed connection on a metaphysical level

This energy we'll call Phenom

Adulterated sonnets

caused tension astronomical

Esteem far reaching

Revolving worlds on borrowed time

We chose to read in between the lines

Four seasons passing, words diminish

Thoughts well rested remain dormant

until forgotten from memory

Remnants of a distorted summary

that should be erased

Counterfeit lines

metaphorically showered philosophy

Drenched in cold pleasantries

no more replaying verses

of a favorite ballad

And I am left elevated

nothing more,

nothing less

For Those of You Battling depression, sadness, or any negative Emotion..

It's easy to fall into a dark space and sometimes hard to get back out of one.  Sometimes even through all that hurt and pain you just have to GET UP, STAND and FIGHT.  It is time to take a stand against what is bringing you down and take back your life and... your smile.  You can either stay there right where you are and remain to be a "victim" (if that's how you see it) or do whatever you have to in order to get out of it.  Whether  that means forcing a SMILE, forcing yourself to FIND SOMETHING FUNNY, and making yourself get OUT of that house and/or environment.  Nothing at all better can come from you just sitting alone replaying your thoughts.  So, even if that means swallowing your pride, giving your ego a rest, and talking to somebody, ANYBODY, please do it.  Whether you think it's true or not someone is somewhere willing to listen.  You've just got to be willing to let them.  YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

In the meantime here are some suggestions for a possible pick me up:

• Read the Bible (if religion/spirituality is your thing) - You'd be amazed how having a belief in that nature can lift your mood.
• Write in a journal (or spiral or piece of paper) - For example, when you wake up/go to bed write the little things you are thankful for or makes you crack a smile even a little bit.  This can be a way to help you focus more on the positive side of things.  Or even, write down little steps you can take to help make things a little better.  One step at a time, even if they're baby steps, there's progress.
• Scribble that fury out! - Drawing and other forms of art can be a way for you to express your emotions when you feel there isn't any other outlet that you're comfortable with just yet.
• Make a playlist of some "Pick Me Up" Theme music - An idea given to me by two very wise women and believe me, it helps!
• Find something such as a punching bag for sale in the classifieds or playing a pickup game of basketball - Sometimes we just need a way to (in a safe way) let go of all that negative energy

Phillipians 4

Are you in crisis? Please call 1-800-273-TALK

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NO fear

Fear is a crippling dis-ease.  If you allow it to, it can keep you from your loved ones, keep you from your joy, and keep you from LIVING Life itself.  Your body can be so overcome with "what-if's and the unknown" that you're left an empty vessel trembling uncontrollably. When in all honesty from the point of conception, that very moment you were created, you were endowed with the power to Stand Tall and STAND STRONG.  So SNAP OUT OF IT!  You are allowing a perception of deception to stifle you.  In other words, you are being defeated by your own mind.  You are your own truth and your mind is playing tricks on you.  You are the one creating this terrifying situation, but you're not the only one.  We all can make a mountain out of a mole hill from time to time.  Even so, we must not fret for THINGS ARE NOT ALWAYS AS THEY SEEM.  You have more control over your life situations that you think.  Just imagine how powerful you'll feel once you grab the reigns and had control over your emotions and over your mind.  No panic attacks, no unnecessary stress; just a peace of mind.

"For God hath not given us a the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."  -2 Timothy 1:7

362 Days and Counting

There will be the unfortunate few who will decide to continue with their usual, meaningless humdrum.  But for many others, the new year brings new beginnings and (most importantly) a clean slate.  2011 (or any day for that matter) should be about bettering yourself and evolving on to a whole new plane.  We need to visualize and grasp new horizons.  Whoever you are.. whatever the case may be.. whether it’s being more aware of our environment and eco-friendly, not polishing off the rest of that last drink, being more spiritual, or even just having more confidence in yourself.  Whatever forms of positive influences you allow in your life will influence someone or something else and so forth.  So LAUGH A LITTLE MORE!!!  It’s alright!  It all comes back full circle.  ;)

The Love Conflict

MindPlay by Karma

(from the book “Sexually Explicit” and featured in "Awake Falling Up", coming soon)

On occasion my puzzle is my ego

And I like to let the pieces fall as they may

Leaving them each in an alluring disarray

And dangerous as it may be

Touched by blissed and shaped in ways that I see fit

Therefore they suit me

Leaves something to reminiscence

Outside the box mindplay exists

What is it that possesses someone to say that they’re falling in love with someone they’ve just virtually met?  They don’t even know any of your faults or flaws… not even your middle name.  If it’s genuine, are they falling for you or that glorified part in (or of) you that they think they see?  It seems that people don’t really value the true meaning of the words “I Love You” anymore.  Just use it for all intents but opening yourself up to the person you’re supposedly in love with.  Unless their actions reflect what their words say.. or maybe the actions have just been going unnoticed, this trend appears to have become the new form of having notches on the belt.  

“Some people are just in love with the idea of falling in love” is something that I’ve grown to believe.  Wanting to recreate that initial feeling, that initial adrenaline rush is what causes people to fall head over heels for someone acting out the scenes in some fairytale movie and saying all the lines.  That beautiful rush is what causes some people to leave relationships that otherwise would have lasted a lifetime.  Searching for what they thought was the excitement missing.  Some feel that love isn’t obtainable therefore nonexistent leaving them to use (the idea of) it as a game to play with the hearts of unsuspecting victims.  Everyone has ugly sides to them and some more so than others.  It all really depends on your perception.  But hey, (inner) beauty is in the eye of the beholder and love does make people do some crazy things no matter how illogical it may seem to someone else.  I just don’t understand it but then I can.  I do believe in love at first sight.  And falling in love probably wouldn’t be as exciting if we did understand it and knew exactly what to expect.   If there is a false sense of love, I wonder if it is caused by the soul-ties that I’ve heard people speak of.  Finding love is like playing a game of Russian roulette.  Everytime your heart breaks, you lose a part of your soul and die a little.  Especially if you have given of yourself more than just emotionally and mentally.  I’ve even said to myself before, “I exude that which eludes me..”   All in all love is still worth fighting for.

 

In Love at War by Karma

(from the book “Awake Falling Up”, coming soon)

I am confused

Not knowing 

What to do

Stressed over the decisions

Cause everything causes

Chain reactions

Hoping not to regret what happens

Needing a sign, a hint, some sort of clue

At times, I feel like a puppet in love

And at others,

Like a pawn in the universe’s

Game of a tug of war

Yep, that’s it

My mind is a battlefield

And I’m constantly countering

Each of my thoughts

Trying to justify my moves as strategies

A back up plan for a backup plan

A counter attack just in case...

I regret what happens.

What Makes You Want to Live a Life of Passion?

"There's NO trying, just Do or do NOT".  -Motherhood (movie)

I often ask people what is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning.  For some it's getting up so they can go to work and that's it, for others it's a painting that they've imagined in their mind, but just not have had the guts to put brush to canvas.  Sometimes I feel that with every experience we have and for each new thought that we've embraced; our "passion" is being created.  It's that driving force that keeps us finding ways to do more than just tread water.  That little image in our minds of how our finish line looks is what helps us to really LIVE instead of just moping around complaining and wishing things would just change.  I feel that even with insurmountable amount of passion about something, a thought isn't much of anything without an action (or series of actions) behind it.  So besides the whole "working to live and living to work", what is it that sparks that little fire in your belly?  What is that thing that stirs up those old butterflies you used to feel when you were younger laying in the grass staring up into the clouds saying, "When I grow up I want to be.."

First Blog

This is going to be my way of learning to open up more and just speak freely.  I find that I often "censor" myself for the sake of not offending anyone.  I'm always pushing everyone else to not be afraid to speak up and just do whatever it is that your heart is truly guiding you to.  Meanwhile, being a sheltered little butterfly myself.  So, I will say this now, if I offend you sorry.  But then again, no I'm not.  I'm pretty sure that even you have offended someone with something that you've said and not cared.  So, if you are reading this, you are witnessing a tiny piece of my journey that I call life..